Roger Cullins

Wow! God is amazing!

I am so thankful for His mercy and grace that HE pours on me…and you daily.
I’ve been resting, praying, seeking, rebuilding, listening, tearing down, sharpening, questioning – you name it – …for over two months now.
My conclusion: I need to be still more.
Sounds familiar huh? I can’t even begin to summarize the things that God has been showing me about Himself – His greatness….and then in turn about me: my depravity …yet my worth in Him and His huge love for me.
Its very sobering yet inspiring to be still long enough to see that God’s greatness and love are MUCH more massive than I ever imagined. Equally sobering is that I feel like God has put my life on a map and showed me an overview of my life so far…good stretches and where I took wrong turns – damaging turns…. that I though were a good idea some of the time, turns I knew were wrong, and others that I didn’t even realize I was taking. Those can’t be taken back…but God is a miraculous redeemer. When I see this snapshot, I see how needy I am not only for His direction but most of all the relationship with Him.
Yes, direction is a blessing from Him, but He is the real prize.
I’m sad that I don’t always see Him that way. I’m trying to re-train my eyes to stay focused on His glory and goodness so that I won’t be distracted by the joy killers that make themselves so readily available in this world – begging to capture the attention of my heart, and leave me starving.

Seeing these things from the Lord have caused lots of tears and literal shouts of joy.
Its an experience that I believe is only just beginning. My life trajectory is being reset – yes I’ve made some big decisions about my future recently – but now God is molding my heart and allowing me to stare at Him for a bit. The heart leads the life. My heart is changing and I have no clue what the details look like – except that its God’s work and He is an amazing Creator and He knows every single detail of every day of my life already.
My mind and heart are so full of truths and thoughts about all of this…but I feel like I’m driving towards the mountains from far away. You know when you’ve been driving across the plains for – forever and you finally see the peaks far off – you get really excited, yet the best views and breath-taking moments are still to come…and so much better. Yeah…I’m just now seeing the faint outline far off…..heading there at the speed and route God so chooses.

Ok. Thats a lot. enough for now.
Logistics:
So…I’m still loving and clinging to this time of rest, but I am beginning to lead worship here and there. Check out the “events” to see details. I have been totally focused on this rest time, so we’ve not even started intentionally booking and getting the word out, but we will be doing that very soon. If you’re interested in having us partner with you – check out “contact”.

Dallas: I’m loving being there…great people, loving Gateway – Gateway Connect Worship Conference was amazing!
Its been cold. need warmer weather. Still searching for the right job situation during the week.
Again – great place for me to be still.

thats it for now.
blessings to you! Don’t be afraid of that still small voice. behind it is a huge God that loves YOU.
roj

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